Tag: rants

How LONG DO I STARE AT THE SCREEN!?

I have 6 .. thats right SIX drafts right now… just sitting there. UGH. I didn’t know writing would be so hard. Over a dozen years ago I could write any one a hand written letter… seven pages long without even thinking of it. I would have this journal with me.. well multiple journals with me… and I would write and sketch and write and sketch and write like it was the last words I would ever say. I use to have a Live Journal and a My Space that I would cling to …. omg I think I even have a Dead Journal out there in the universe. I don’t remember any of the names… or the names but the emails they were married to no longer exist. I can’t wait to figure that out one day. I will laugh so hard when I see whatever it was that I was going through that I THOUGHT I couldn’t. Late teenage/early adult angst…. the best right????haha.
Angst is a funny thing that sticks to you like glue.  The definition of angst is “a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human condition or the state of the world in general.”  When you grow up with angst you don’t seem to quite get over it like you get over other things. You can get over jealousy and you can even get over love; most of the time it isn’t true love. You can get over being angry or being sad, but to get over angst is to get over an entire mental process. When you surround yourself with angst at a young age it becomes a mindset, it becomes your entire view into your adult life. Perhaps you really do suffer from anxiety so you have it going in to your adult life, you dread going to school and therefore you learn to dread going to work. You are upset over the human conditioning in the world and that again leads to your general disposition of your adult life leading into the rest of your life. Think about it. ….
A generation of kids growing up with Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Stone Temple Pilots, The Smashing Pumpkins, Bush, Marilyn Manson, KORN, Rage Against The Machine, etc. becoming parents. Think about it, really, think about it.


So in all of my drafts that I kind of see as a waste of momentum that I had only for a few moments, I am really trying to sit down with my thoughts. Nathaniel Ratliff is on in the background and it will be followed by Ben Howard. Yesterday we had a great listening session of Thelonious Monk and Miles Davis, and earlier today I was listening to … you guessed it.. Today by The Smashing Pumpkins. My 8.75 year old; hes close to being 9 and reminds me how close he is; loves that song. I was listening to Pink Floyd earlier this week and I also jammed out to Outkast. My musical taste is all complete feeling. I never listen to anything that doesnt move me. Sometimes I love to dance, I mean just love to dance around my house completely unaware of anyone that lives with me and sing my heart out while I shimmy around. Other times I want to sit with some deep heartfelt music that just touches my soul, and perhaps I need to call my parents so if I throw on some Carol King or Jethro Tull it will make our conversations a little more meaningful. Every once in a while I want to just throw my husband through a loop and I will throw on some Stevie Wonder and LifeHouse and anything that I can slow dance with him to in our kitchen.. ya know….. just because I want intimacy without sex.  I love holding someone close to me and a spontaneous commitment of body touching for 4-10 mintes. MEN listen up… your woman; or man or whomever you are with; wants you to pull her close and do something a little silly, a little intimate, and something that will make her grin when she remembers it. Ya’ll have no idea what grabbing a woman by her waist to her favorite song and dancing with her will do, something that is so underrated in a sexualized generation. I feel like men have lost their intimacy while women have gained theirs. This isn’t because of our born sex, or because of any political naming, this is just my opinion.  Maybe you could get laid more if you empowered your partner you know? Men see empowerment as their strength when it comes to sex but you know that a woman leads in the bedroom? I mean sure you could pump and dump one right in, but in all honesty, it is her that can make sex into love making. And of course if you are two men, two women, two … human beings of whatever you claim your nature to be.. this applies to you as well. Remember that the better your partner feels about themselves the more open they can be with what they want and I think that we have lost that in a generation that is full of angst.  We are filled with too much inside of ourselves from our past to really explore what is the truth of our nature. I know this blog has gone a bit 180 but its how my mind works.


My last note is to remind you of something:
Life is really short and a lot of people have a lot of shit going on. So keep thinking of yourself. We are often told about how tougher it is to be someone else so it musst be a sham how we feel… but its not. how you feel is how you feel and i am really starting to get pissed every time I HAVE to play some pissing contest of WHO HAS IT WORSE? Its not a competition. ALSO FUUUUUUUCK LET ME SAY THIS…

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change  <—fuck you keep trying to change it all the fucking time

The courage to change the things I can<—-YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD you need the courage to CHANGE EVERY SINGLE THING YOU WANT AND IVE GOT YOUR BACK

and the wisdom to know the difference<—-YOU ARE THE BEAST TO CHANGE ALL THE THINGS IN THE WORLD. EVERY VOICE MATTERS. YOU DON’T NEED WISDOM, WISDOM COMES FROM AGE AND YOU JUST GO WITH YOUR GUT AND MAKE A DAMN DIFFERENCE EVERY WHERE YOU GO!

 

Much love.

Miles

 

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Episode 18: The State of our Union, Abandoned Resolutions, Return of MC Variety Hour in 2018!

MC Variety Hour is back in 2018! This week we discussed resolutions that we plan to break, the state of our fragile union, Civil War, Revolutions, and finish with gushing all about Doctor Who. Join us as we meander our way through a variety hour of conversation fueled by a high coffee intake.

Resolutions and Good Tidings

As we prepare to enter another new year and say goodbye to 2017 I often find myself around this time pondering the year behind me and the year stretched out in front of me as some sort of golden, “this year is going to be better” mindset. As though a year is a long time when in actuality it’s a very short period of time. Time, in itself stretches and wanes across our universe, when an hour feels like a minute and a minute like an hour, we often bang the drum of time, lamenting that it waits for no man, that’s there never enough of it and that it heals all wounds… as we spend our time mourning the loss of time.

This year we started the Miles and Crawford Variety Hour. This month is our 6 month anniversary and we honestly can’t believe it’s been that long. Time sure does fly, doesn’t it? =) (hahaha) We are currently on episode 17. We’ve had some ups and downs, trying to get a regular schedule or episodes has proved to be difficult when time (ha, get my theme yet?) has gotten short for either of us. But, even when we release episodes with large gaps of time in between them we still think about and work on our podcast outside of the actual recording. Research, themes and long essays sit on our shared drive waiting to be explored. The biggest hurdle so far for us has been promotion, networking and of course, scheduling. We live in 2 separate towns and have gone to recording across the internet instead of trying to meet weekly for recording sessions. Our audio quality has suffered some over the course of our experiment and seems to have finally worked itself with the lovely gift of a fancy microphone from Miles to Crawford. (Thank you again Mrs. Miles)

What are we thinking about going into the new year? Well, we have big ideas but acting on them is the hardest part (as it is for everyone.) We would love to bring you more content in between recordings in the form of blogs, essays, comics, storyboards, and other little things to connect with you as often as we can. This new year we are exploring new topics and shorter episodes, and other platforms that allow us to do small recordings or check in’s with our audience.

What are some topics or areas of conversation we’ve neglected that you’d like to hear us ramble on about? Or, what have we touched on but not fully explored that you’d like to hear us talk about in depth? We love to rant, give us some ideas that will inflame our leftist sensibilities and ignite our imagined revolution!

We here at Miles and Crawford appreciate the small listenership we have now and look forward to growing it as the new year engulfs us and then leaves us behind. I look forward to reading this blog again in a year and hope that we are still in production with us going on episode 70, celebrating a larger audience and new content streams. As the year comes to a close we can’t thank you enough for your support and continued listening. It takes a lot of work to put a podcast together and to keep at it, and when you have people that like what you’re doing and come back every week to listen again it really drives you to keep going and try to improve on it week after week.

Thanks again for listening, reading and supporting us. This year is all about growth and hope you’ll stick around for the ride.

See you in the new year with new episodes!

Grateful for Guns(?)

 I wonder how grateful we must be for the NRA, I mean without them what kind of real change and implementation could we do to gun legislation?
Do you think when other people sit at home in some state of surprise, they are really surprised at another shooting or are they more surprised on where it happened ?

We must be really grateful to the president of the united states because there is never an act of terrorism that happens in this country unless the color of the persons skin is darker than his. He even offered that this could actually be a case of mental health after he just signed a bill a few months ago allowing those with mental health issues to have guns.

We have to be grateful for our kids to learn what to do in case of a school shooter because if they are not ready to look through the end of a cold metal  gun barrel, than do they really know what living is anyway?

We have to be grateful for our congress and senators sitting on their hands doing absolutely nothing when mayhem breaks out because where else could our tax dollars go if not to pay for them to do nothing? We have to really appreciate how hard they work against us because we keep voting them in office.

I wonder how grateful we must be for the land that imprisons us through fear and poverty because with freedom and wealth we might actually have a chance at a real future.

There is a lot to be said and more than enough that needs to be done but we are so grateful for the death counts to not include our names that we simply let nothing happen to ourselves but to everyone else.


I was sitting at work today reading the latest news wondering what the hell our problem is in this country. Every one is getting ready for the Holiday(s) and talking about all the things that they are thankful for, and I wonder, are we really this grateful for the life given to us that we do nothing to make it better?

Remember, Remember the Fifth of November!

Remember, remember!
The fifth of November,
The Gunpowder treason and plot;
I know of no reason
Why the Gunpowder treason 
Should ever be forgot!
Guy Fawkes and his companions
Did the scheme contrive,
To blow the King and Parliament
All up alive.
Threescore barrels, laid below,
To prove old England’s overthrow.
But, by God’s providence, him they catch,
With a dark lantern, lighting a match!
A stick and a stake
For King James’s sake!
If you won’t give me one,
I’ll take two,
The better for me,
And the worse for you.
A rope, a rope, to hang the Pope,
A penn’orth of cheese to choke him,
A pint of beer to wash it down,
And a jolly good fire to burn him.
Holloa, boys! holloa, boys! make the bells ring!
Holloa, boys! holloa boys! God save the King!
Hip, hip, hooor-r-r-ray

Episode 13: Cursed Cast! Coffee, Pervywood, Gun Control, Voting, & Positive things!

Miles & Crawford are back this week with lucky number 13! This week we share some of the positive things going on in the world, Reminding people to vote this coming week, (VOTE!) gun control, hunting, and some random chit chat that veers into wondering just what the hee-haw is going on in Pervywood. Join us as we meander our way through another hour of what makes up the Variety Hour!

 

 

Scandals to the right and to the left, I just wanted to drink some coffee. . . .

Well why not make another post about another Hollywood elite coming out as a possible rapist?Again we are asked to find proof and again someone is hiding under the roof of alcoholism to deem their actions acceptable. Worst of all what Kevin Spacey has done by lurking under the umbrella of love in the LGBTQIA is unacceptable. He took the community and then threw them so far out, that he might as well have thrown mud on them laughing while walking away in a very Underwood tone.   

Taking such a beautiful community and hiding a 30 year old crime under it, is beyond heart-wrenching. It was so extremely tone deft coming from a man who portrays such a well spoken egotistical southern gentleman . Kevin, you should of known better. YOU play the problem with America and on a personal level you COULDN’T even get it right.

Shocked? Not really, Mr. Spacey always had a creepy vibe to him on the screen but I just thought it was his choice of characters.
Surprised? Surprised that a Hollywood actor blames alcohol on his ability to jump on a young child and commit adultery? Should I be surprised because a boy came out? Because neither of these moments are surprising to me. Boys are raped too, we just had a talk about this didn’t we?

Appalled? Only at Mr. Spacey’s apparent disregard of the community he should of opened his arms out to. This is only about pride and Mr. Spacey figures that while his credits roll so high under his series and movies pretty much we will accept.I am not sorry to say WE DO NOT ACCEPT.

I am NOT sorry there Kevin. Not all of us are going to sit quietly while you continue to backtrack your way out of the spotlight. You want to tell me about your privacy? No, see, you took that away from yourself and your victim(s). See I know they will come out of the woodwork. You did that side smile and wink thing didn’t you? You really are not that far from the characters you play, in fact, now I see you were never an actor you were in fact always committed to the parts you played because that was you.You were always this guy whose shadows foreshadow the human inside. We found you and we will fight you.

All I wanted was a cup of coffee and to read about how orange face will soon be impeached, however, instead I got another heart pumping, body aching truth that the people who we thought we could trust we can’t. You are all going down and with your sinking ship I bid you a fare-thee-fucking-well.