Tag: women

How LONG DO I STARE AT THE SCREEN!?

I have 6 .. thats right SIX drafts right now… just sitting there. UGH. I didn’t know writing would be so hard. Over a dozen years ago I could write any one a hand written letter… seven pages long without even thinking of it. I would have this journal with me.. well multiple journals with me… and I would write and sketch and write and sketch and write like it was the last words I would ever say. I use to have a Live Journal and a My Space that I would cling to …. omg I think I even have a Dead Journal out there in the universe. I don’t remember any of the names… or the names but the emails they were married to no longer exist. I can’t wait to figure that out one day. I will laugh so hard when I see whatever it was that I was going through that I THOUGHT I couldn’t. Late teenage/early adult angst…. the best right????haha.
Angst is a funny thing that sticks to you like glue.  The definition of angst is “a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human condition or the state of the world in general.”  When you grow up with angst you don’t seem to quite get over it like you get over other things. You can get over jealousy and you can even get over love; most of the time it isn’t true love. You can get over being angry or being sad, but to get over angst is to get over an entire mental process. When you surround yourself with angst at a young age it becomes a mindset, it becomes your entire view into your adult life. Perhaps you really do suffer from anxiety so you have it going in to your adult life, you dread going to school and therefore you learn to dread going to work. You are upset over the human conditioning in the world and that again leads to your general disposition of your adult life leading into the rest of your life. Think about it. ….
A generation of kids growing up with Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Stone Temple Pilots, The Smashing Pumpkins, Bush, Marilyn Manson, KORN, Rage Against The Machine, etc. becoming parents. Think about it, really, think about it.


So in all of my drafts that I kind of see as a waste of momentum that I had only for a few moments, I am really trying to sit down with my thoughts. Nathaniel Ratliff is on in the background and it will be followed by Ben Howard. Yesterday we had a great listening session of Thelonious Monk and Miles Davis, and earlier today I was listening to … you guessed it.. Today by The Smashing Pumpkins. My 8.75 year old; hes close to being 9 and reminds me how close he is; loves that song. I was listening to Pink Floyd earlier this week and I also jammed out to Outkast. My musical taste is all complete feeling. I never listen to anything that doesnt move me. Sometimes I love to dance, I mean just love to dance around my house completely unaware of anyone that lives with me and sing my heart out while I shimmy around. Other times I want to sit with some deep heartfelt music that just touches my soul, and perhaps I need to call my parents so if I throw on some Carol King or Jethro Tull it will make our conversations a little more meaningful. Every once in a while I want to just throw my husband through a loop and I will throw on some Stevie Wonder and LifeHouse and anything that I can slow dance with him to in our kitchen.. ya know….. just because I want intimacy without sex.  I love holding someone close to me and a spontaneous commitment of body touching for 4-10 mintes. MEN listen up… your woman; or man or whomever you are with; wants you to pull her close and do something a little silly, a little intimate, and something that will make her grin when she remembers it. Ya’ll have no idea what grabbing a woman by her waist to her favorite song and dancing with her will do, something that is so underrated in a sexualized generation. I feel like men have lost their intimacy while women have gained theirs. This isn’t because of our born sex, or because of any political naming, this is just my opinion.  Maybe you could get laid more if you empowered your partner you know? Men see empowerment as their strength when it comes to sex but you know that a woman leads in the bedroom? I mean sure you could pump and dump one right in, but in all honesty, it is her that can make sex into love making. And of course if you are two men, two women, two … human beings of whatever you claim your nature to be.. this applies to you as well. Remember that the better your partner feels about themselves the more open they can be with what they want and I think that we have lost that in a generation that is full of angst.  We are filled with too much inside of ourselves from our past to really explore what is the truth of our nature. I know this blog has gone a bit 180 but its how my mind works.


My last note is to remind you of something:
Life is really short and a lot of people have a lot of shit going on. So keep thinking of yourself. We are often told about how tougher it is to be someone else so it musst be a sham how we feel… but its not. how you feel is how you feel and i am really starting to get pissed every time I HAVE to play some pissing contest of WHO HAS IT WORSE? Its not a competition. ALSO FUUUUUUUCK LET ME SAY THIS…

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change  <—fuck you keep trying to change it all the fucking time

The courage to change the things I can<—-YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD you need the courage to CHANGE EVERY SINGLE THING YOU WANT AND IVE GOT YOUR BACK

and the wisdom to know the difference<—-YOU ARE THE BEAST TO CHANGE ALL THE THINGS IN THE WORLD. EVERY VOICE MATTERS. YOU DON’T NEED WISDOM, WISDOM COMES FROM AGE AND YOU JUST GO WITH YOUR GUT AND MAKE A DAMN DIFFERENCE EVERY WHERE YOU GO!

 

Much love.

Miles

 

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Resolutions and Good Tidings

As we prepare to enter another new year and say goodbye to 2017 I often find myself around this time pondering the year behind me and the year stretched out in front of me as some sort of golden, “this year is going to be better” mindset. As though a year is a long time when in actuality it’s a very short period of time. Time, in itself stretches and wanes across our universe, when an hour feels like a minute and a minute like an hour, we often bang the drum of time, lamenting that it waits for no man, that’s there never enough of it and that it heals all wounds… as we spend our time mourning the loss of time.

This year we started the Miles and Crawford Variety Hour. This month is our 6 month anniversary and we honestly can’t believe it’s been that long. Time sure does fly, doesn’t it? =) (hahaha) We are currently on episode 17. We’ve had some ups and downs, trying to get a regular schedule or episodes has proved to be difficult when time (ha, get my theme yet?) has gotten short for either of us. But, even when we release episodes with large gaps of time in between them we still think about and work on our podcast outside of the actual recording. Research, themes and long essays sit on our shared drive waiting to be explored. The biggest hurdle so far for us has been promotion, networking and of course, scheduling. We live in 2 separate towns and have gone to recording across the internet instead of trying to meet weekly for recording sessions. Our audio quality has suffered some over the course of our experiment and seems to have finally worked itself with the lovely gift of a fancy microphone from Miles to Crawford. (Thank you again Mrs. Miles)

What are we thinking about going into the new year? Well, we have big ideas but acting on them is the hardest part (as it is for everyone.) We would love to bring you more content in between recordings in the form of blogs, essays, comics, storyboards, and other little things to connect with you as often as we can. This new year we are exploring new topics and shorter episodes, and other platforms that allow us to do small recordings or check in’s with our audience.

What are some topics or areas of conversation we’ve neglected that you’d like to hear us ramble on about? Or, what have we touched on but not fully explored that you’d like to hear us talk about in depth? We love to rant, give us some ideas that will inflame our leftist sensibilities and ignite our imagined revolution!

We here at Miles and Crawford appreciate the small listenership we have now and look forward to growing it as the new year engulfs us and then leaves us behind. I look forward to reading this blog again in a year and hope that we are still in production with us going on episode 70, celebrating a larger audience and new content streams. As the year comes to a close we can’t thank you enough for your support and continued listening. It takes a lot of work to put a podcast together and to keep at it, and when you have people that like what you’re doing and come back every week to listen again it really drives you to keep going and try to improve on it week after week.

Thanks again for listening, reading and supporting us. This year is all about growth and hope you’ll stick around for the ride.

See you in the new year with new episodes!

Episode 13: Cursed Cast! Coffee, Pervywood, Gun Control, Voting, & Positive things!

Miles & Crawford are back this week with lucky number 13! This week we share some of the positive things going on in the world, Reminding people to vote this coming week, (VOTE!) gun control, hunting, and some random chit chat that veers into wondering just what the hee-haw is going on in Pervywood. Join us as we meander our way through another hour of what makes up the Variety Hour!

 

 

Welcome Us to Patreon!

Well friends Season 2 of our podcast finally launched! We are starting to feel better about a few of our things but we have a long way to go still and we know that. We have decided that it is time for us to join Patreon and try to get some support for us to continue on this full season and next. Anyone who would like to throw some support our way can gladly do so at this following website below.

https://www.patreon.com/mcvarietyhour

We will help do shout outs, recommendations, and are trying to grow our fan base little by little. We can do this and we know we can. We are not asking for much but are asking for a simple $1-$10 per month donation. We know the struggles of these times and there is so many friends and family members to support and all we ask is that perhaps we take a little bit of that soda pop money and give it to us.

We love you all, continue to look forward to our updates and tomorrow a new blog will be out.. Thank you for all your love, support, and listening ears. xoxo

T

#METOO spread like wildfire over the weekend and continues to have a serious impact on the news feed, but this time all major news sources. I am glad that there was a lot of coming out, a lot of stories, and most of all a lot of transparency. I wish that 10 years ago when this movement was first started it was just as important, but I guess because it wasn’t #METOO has become even more today. There is a to say about my girlfriends who posted their stories or just the symbol; there is, even more, to say about the men who fought them on it. I was disgusted at their anger for not being included, and I tried to sympathize to a few of them who called themselves allies but really they were just bullies.

I won’t forget you assholes who made coming out on this day more difficult for women, and I won’t forget you assholes who made coming out a thing in the first place. It doesn’t make me a sexist; I was called a sexist 10 different times the other day; for calling you out for taking the limelight. Being a victim of sexual misconduct and harassment is not a light you want to take, I promise you that. I know men are molested, I know they are raped, and I know that in almost every single case that a woman has come forward about rape there is immediately (go look at some past sites’ timing of their articles) about what to do as a man when you are raped. It is almost immediately after a woman announces that she was victim of sexual violence in any manner that there is a follow up on how men should feel as victims too. I am not angry about this, but I know it is a way to tell the ladies that what they are going through; what they are coming out with; can also happen to other sexes so don’t feel like its just about you okay? I know that these articles are for inclusion but sometimes… just sometimes… standing for solidarity is in fact about a singular moment happening. So I want to take this time to SHOUT OUT to KatyKatiKate, this article was a high-five, hug, love, and cheers all wrapped up in one. And for that, I thank her for being a voice that I was trying to be but could not .
Read her article here

We can not follow up #metoo sadly enough because as I write this very article another woman will be raped and more than likely her rape kit will go un-tested and maybe even her story will never be told. We can not follow up #metoo while we still have several dozen sexual predators including our own president leading the world into silence. We can not follow up #metoo because we allow this behavior from men on so many other platforms. We can not follow up #metoo because the stories that are out there are being silenced right now by politics, killings, racism, and hate. There is no follow up there is only change. I hope that this will lead to change. I do feel …I do fear.. that we will become complacent again. That we will continue to allow these stories to unfold and we will become desensitized as we always have and move on with our day saying that we can do nothing to help. I want change and I want to see change and I want to hear change and I want our laws to change and I want our government to change. There is a lot of wants, a lot of demands, and even after 3 million women went to the streets in January not much actually changed besides the tone of voices of the opposition.  Remember to listen to keywords in the next few days if not weeks, find your helpers and seek those who want to understand. Actions are always louder than words.

Thank you– To every woman who stepped forward who shared their story, who believed their friend, who struggled to watch their news feed, and who cried with us. Thank You– to those who remained silent in their own pain, who can not share their truth, who can not bare their soul to social media, we stand with you too.  And I hope and I pray that I never have to see another #metoo but I know I will and I hope when I do that we have made some stride for ourselves. I wish us all the luck and stay strong even if not for yourself for others too.

I love you, I believe in you, and I know you are not lying.